Wednesday, April 11, 2007

i know its been eons since my last proper posting... hehe sorry for the delay... not much time for the soul searching here... or least no time to type.. :p

well i am still racing for time here... but the defiant me simply wants to do sth other than coming and hitting the books like i've planned and i've always done.. but not always complete... haha!

really i am feeling down... i have no idea wer its from.. maybe its a series of things... maybe its just one thing.. or one person... maybe its nothing... maybe i'm just being a baby... oh hell... i'm sick of pitying of myself... nvr want to visit that feeling ever again... i feel really stupid at the end of it all

my exams are ard the corner... i have a tt which i keep adjusting... even if i follow... i wonder sometimes if i studied for the exam or to reach the quota for day which was set in the TT.... sometimes i get really distracted by loved ones... a sweet irritation... but still an irritation.. lolz!

a husby i love so much (maybe too much.... then again i think there is no such thing as too much but i love u so... :'( ) ... i rarely have time for ... & and so many other things... haiz... sorry me dear....

new job.... not a prob... but drains the energy out of me to be walking on the edge during my working hours.... i enjoy my work no doubt.. but... e-mailing and phone calls can be scary... cos it concerns people's money... not many are receptive to u about this... especially when u're the "loan shark" lolz... not to mention me trying not to make stupid mistakes... which might get the perm staff in visa to think i am just any other gal... i'm making every effort to learn fast... and carry out my activities professionally... not easy w/o proper experience to back that up... but... i think i'll pull thru..

I'm stoning... cos i am scared of feeling all those that i can feel if i let loose the numbness... dont think... just do it... other things will come by...

I dont think its stress... its uncertainty... i think...

I learnt sth... moving on was oni my job... i cant expect it out of others... its painful... but its the truth...

but what i believe still stands... the footprints of your past will always be visible not to hurt u... or weaken u... but to remind you...

I intend to lead a straight forward life... like i've been striving to do so.. all along lately...
there are things i can achieve... and i can be the many things i've wanted to be... i am more than proud to say that i am at least a step closer to that me... i know it more than anyone else... i love the way it is...every difficulty that came by gave me another chance to be proud of myself... i want to keep doing this... its really hm... cool! *leaps in joy!* hehe...

loads on things pending on me... loads of things i want to do... i must do... and for the things i cant do anything to help... and for the things i cant change... and for the things.. which hurt... sadly... i'll make do... and will go pass.... and i think i still lack loads of patience... poor me...

P.S. i got a new kutty mouse... hehe... its white.... with colourful lights.. cute!hehe... (hey! it wasnt impulse buying k? i waited till my projects finished b4 i decided to buy it... :p hehe!)

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Henceforth, i make a promise..

To respect myself
To know my worth
To treasure my integrity
To choose my faith
To never be deterred by emotions
To never stumble in the name of love
To never question hardship
To never ever entrust my heart
Upon one who knows not it's worth

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