Thursday, November 23, 2006
there the occasional pits in my life... those which i have fallen into... god's grace... with the support of love and guidance from my loved ones...
I've found my way out...
but there seems to be no escape from the ghosts of my past... ghosts that haunt my loved ones... which in turn haunts me...
i cant help noticing the
occasional silent reminders...
I want to move on.. move on with
righteousness and love by my side..
I hope that this chance will be kind enough to let me start all over again..
I have confidence in myself.. cos i know now where my heart lies.. and how i want the rest of my life to be... i hope the same for my loved ones... i hope they can find it in their heart to trust me again some day...
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Monday, November 20, 2006
I dont hate feeling lonely cos i wait 4 u
I dont hate waiting cos i miss u
I dont hate missing you cos i love you...
You called today ... I miss cuddling up to you... i soaped myself twice during shower while thinking of you... haha!
hm.. We had so many good times... times when i didnt notice what u meant to me... It's ok... I'm very sure we'll have much better times ahead... I look forward to a lifetime with you... i love you...
The mix of this silent turmoil surprises me
I've never imagined such vastness...
Immensely unbearable yet sweet a pain it is...
I know now... that i love you so...
4 i hear your voice at heart
4 i see your smile thru the darkness
4 i feel your warmth thru my sleeplessness
tonight.. i'll long 4 u...
sleep tight ... sleep with peace..
nights to you my vigil keeping
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11:03 PM
Here is a quote, " He or she truely loves the you only when he or she loves you for who you are"
"This is me! Get used to it!"
"Why should I change for you?!!"
Some commonly thrown words in view of the quote above... I feel that i misinterpreted it(the quote) all along.
It is ideal to make ourselves better each and every day. But somehow, it seems easier if it was done more for the one you love rather than for yourself. So what has this got to do with the quote?
The quote says - only a true lover can take a person for he or she is. Humans being naturally on the defensive side, have the tendancy to judge the other fist. the important thing to do is to ask yourself - so how truely so i love him or her? have wished that he or she had a different characteristic? have i expected him or her to change for me? what have i changed about myself to take him or her for who he or she is?
My point is... the quote in centred around you! You must do what u can to adapt to your loved one... to fall in love is as easy... as being born.... but to continue loving is as tuff as living the rest of your life... you have to learn and understand with patience about the one you're going to spend the rest of your life with...
However, a one way effort on this may dry one's well of patience. Imagine if both in a couple thought in the same way, leaps and bounds of serenity in the love they share... I look forward to that...
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Thursday, November 02, 2006
this is the first day of the second last month of this ever memorable year... All the ups and downs... So much in such a short time...2006...I know for sure that it will be the most memorable year of my life.. Each and everyone close to my heart has watched me through each own"s individual point of view.
Family; friends; education; love. Each has taken a turn through the course of events this year. The year has not come to an end yet. So this is not a farewell... but it is a sign... that i look forward to the coming years started off by 2006..
A brand new life... the past behind me... and lots of love; hope and will by my side.. I start this journey. I see this as an opportunity to be a step closer to the dream "me".
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Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Life is a theory of balance. Happiness vs Sadness; Love vs Hate; Disappointments vs Satisfactions etc.
My life before this may not seem all that great... but with regards to the theory above... happier times have come by..
We often find ourselves exclaiming, " Why must i make the 1st move?!!"
In my opinion, that is probably because there were many times we did not notice the 1st move made by the other. Like this, we tend to overlook many silent efforts taken by our loved ones.
Before one has a say.. i believe that it is very important to hear and understand what the other has to say or is trying to express first... after which ... it will be easier for you to measure your thoughts before one speaks it out....
Expression of emotions is very important. Despite the effects it has on others around you... it is an essential creation by god... truth and transparency is easier to handle...
It has to go two ways for it to be the most effective... so..
One who loves and care for the other should do all he or she can to make it easier to open up to each other.
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